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Saturday, May 27th, 2006
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7:56 pm - *moving this blog
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I m moving this blog to eBlogger, the url is as the following:
http://oceanian.blogspot.com/
So I guess this would be the very last entry here at livejournal. I will continue this blog at eblogger.com
Thanks to all my beloved readers. See you there.
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| Wednesday, May 24th, 2006
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7:09 am - *back to tpe, back to work
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I have arrived TPE on the 22nd and started working yesterday....
Wanted to say thanks, thanks to my colleagues, boss, friends, the guy from kinko, monks who helped out with my mother's funeral.
Thank you all for your thoughtfulness and friendships, really really really appriciate this.
current mood:  pensive
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| Friday, May 12th, 2006
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8:03 pm - *grief
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I am coming here to write to let you know that, I have lost the most important person in my life. I have arrived home in the US on May 11th to see her for the last time.
Currently do not know how long it will take before going back to Taiwan.
Thank you for reading this blog, I will come back and update when I am ready.
current mood:  guilty+grief
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| Thursday, May 4th, 2006
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11:30 pm - *honestly speaking
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I have to be honest today, not that I haven't, but its just that I've choosen to input stuff here mostly with light emotions....For the whole entire time I have exclude this fear....fear of loosing someone very impt.
I have to admit that I feel worthless and scared sometimes to see my mom suffer from the illness....even tho she had some progress, but having relapse now.
Worst of all is the conseguence after surgery.
Sometimes I feel as if I was going crazy, that in the day time I could laugh and work hard with colleagues, smile and be friendly to ppl on the street. At night, esp after speaking with my mom...I would cry....not just sobbing, but burst of tears...and fears
I am going crazy.
current mood:  scared
current music: Hamasaki Ayumi-Voyage
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| Tuesday, May 2nd, 2006
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11:52 pm - *monjya yaki
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Had monjya yaki with colleagues after work today. Tasted different from what I remembered.... Ah franky speaking I miss Japan more than I do to the states....well maybe about the same.
Not sure why, i guess in a taiwanese way "it's machi"<----(Taiglish)
Came back home today, then a friend called to come to chck out my pc, good thing it didn't die just the vedio card's sort of displaced. Thanks Filex even tho i know u don't read this blog, since its in english :P
Afterwards went out for late night...McDonold's, to celebrate loosing weight (I've lost 8lbs?)Can't really tell huh....
Kind of confused by ppl sometimes, I really doubt i read ppl's movement correctly, but somehow sharp with each individual's characteristics.
Its good to hang out with friend from childhood....could say what I want to say and do what I want to do....hitting them, making fun of them, don't care if they do the same to me....:) Felix u know who i am talking about here. Thanks a lot pal, really really truly appriciate ur friendship. Even tho you've gave me bottle of stars half of the size compare to the one u gave to the girl u had a crush on for the whole entire time. I don't care, just that u owe me bunch of dinners, muahahahahah
J/K....In a mood to litsen to that song from mulin rouge....
current mood:  blah
current music: *Nicole Kidmon-One Day I will Fly Away
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| Saturday, April 29th, 2006
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3:48 pm - *finally stopped raining
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It had been raining in TPE for almost a week, and today the sun finally came out. Wuuu hooo, and guess what? I've been staying home and doing clean up for the entire day today.
Its not like that I can't go out or anything, I just got up ended up cleaning up before I do anything else (yes me and my obessions of getting things done at once, and cleaning). Kind of don't want to go out since I haven't been spending much time at home, kind of just want peace with my books and stuff.....
Haven't been able to sleep on time lately, and definately is turning into a "panda"(in Taiwan ppl refer to lack of sleep and having dark circle around eyes as looking like a panda).
So what's the update with me? Well, no longer have the mood swing in case any of are wondering about that. Totally fine now.
I know what I m doing now....well, I had to sit down and map out some focuses for the next 12 months, i think having a plan would definately help getting what I want to get. So far I have included 4 things... and i think that should be good already...
What four things?
1. Plan a trip to Japan, this would mean saving money, and planning etc.(definatley means i need to brush up my japanese.)
2. Work, work work,....which i won't mention much here, but unlike how I have been percieved at work so far....I do have an ambition. ;) yo'll know what I want.
3. Live a healthy life, again this means a lot of things...eat right, sleep on time, stay fit...(oh yeah that means to loose weight.)
4. Grad School, ok i know some of u are going like grad school? where did that came from....well, its been on my mind since.....college. I m just taking some time off.. and had a lil detour.. and now i m back on planning. Again, this would mean to set up a target within this year, decide what i want to study and next year means to go for it.
There we go. :) Tats it from me today. I hope yo'll are having a good time out there....Sumiko, I know you are thinking about a trip to taiwan, totally welcomed, but just need to warn u, i m quite embarrased....taiwan is not the cleanest place on earth, my room's fine, just so u know i live in a building thats getting kncoked down pretty soon, this building is old....and trashy.....if you don't mind, would love to have you stay with me. :)
current mood:  rejuvenated
current music: *Misia-Everything
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| Tuesday, April 25th, 2006
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11:15 pm - *being true to myself
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As u see i haven't been feeling the best lately.
I decided to face things with honesty here, so I will continue, rather than running away for a couple of days.
Kind of having a crush on somebody who I have met lately, and the sad things is this person will be going away soon. Not sure why, buy the mood swing was geting out of hand, not just b/c of him but also work ppl and etc.
Its all good now. Just that I don't want him to go away....
current mood:  awake
current music: *You don't know me
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1:02 am - *bad day
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Was having a bad day, went home and had an emotional breakdown, wanted to turn on the lights realized electricity was out...then cried some more.
WTF.
But, thankfully, somehow this electricity outage has been taken care of, will need to go pay the bills tomorrow, and thank god, after having it back to life, i got online and sorted things out...well, thanks George, for ringing those bells for me....really really appriciate it.
"You expierence life, don't study life."
Gotta go pass out now, good night.
current mood: depressed
current music: *Bad Day
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| Tuesday, April 18th, 2006
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11:55 pm - * karaoke
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Yes, I know some of you might feel doubt after reading this entry, but today decided to hang out with other two younger colleagues, WE DID KARAOKE for 4 striaght hours!!!!
Well, as you could imagine, I probably sang the least among all, but this is like the first time I could really enjoy singing with a mic.
I am ganna practice, and next time when you see me, you will have to watch me to sing like a pro. :P
Good night, its late.
current mood:  hyper
current music: *kinki kids - hakka candy
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| Monday, April 17th, 2006
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12:58 am - *another sleepless night
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Honestly, I haven't been able to fall asleep on time. I meant, I haven't been able to fall asleep past bed time.
Seems like I have been trying to avoid something, something I am afraid of....Not sure what is it that I am trying to avoid.....? I am keeping myself from doing the planning which needs to be done a while ago.
What is it?
What am I trying to say?
I am not sure, neither.
I haven't been giving the fullest me at work, this is for sure. And I hate it, hate it, hate it.
Dang it, teresa.
You can do it.
current mood:  annoyed
current music: *心動 心痛
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| Sunday, April 16th, 2006
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12:42 am - *saturday night
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Hung out with colleagues for the entire evening. Turned out to be exceptionally fun. And totally nothing related to work, which I like. Was a bit worried about all the gossip thing and stuff.
Once for all, this proves not my all observation on ppl are 100% correct, and ppl are not just skin deep, what i see at work. So the three of us just chat and chat and chat. Well, of course it wasn't like high school friends chit chat, but at least we did not run out of subject, and it was different than what I expected. A bit more personal.....dunno how to describe.
Nothing to worry, I feel I am the person who spoke the least of my opinion ;)
K, its late, better go to bed now. Need to keep my natural beauty go on and on and on and on.................................
Good night yo'all.
current mood:  cheerful
current music: *彩虹天堂
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| Saturday, April 15th, 2006
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12:57 am - *sleepless in.....where?
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Can't fall asleep, so decided to hook up the laptop and surf the web in bed.
Weather cooled down a bit, which is nice. I've realized, over hot and humid, now i prefer wet and breezy. (shush, i've lived in the NW for almost a decade.)
Work was good today, had this thing piled up from a long time sort of solved, at least on my side, we were making progress. .....
Ended up chatting with ppl, from Seattle, (I have nice and hardworking frineds ;)
Ok, time to catch some sleep, beautfy sleep.
Good night
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| Thursday, April 13th, 2006
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10:28 pm - *got something to say...........
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I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.I MISS U.
Goes to yo'all who are reading this.
*muah
current mood: chipper
current music: Mr Children - NOT FOUND
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| Wednesday, April 12th, 2006
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11:04 pm - *b*&$^&* time
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WARNING: rated R, this entry contains hard language, violence....pls do not read this entry if you w/o parental guidance or control if you are 17 or younger.
GUESS WHAT???????? BITCH time it is.......................................................................funny thing is that, I really got nothing to say after I've got the header down..................
SHUT UP BITCH, here we go, this goes to the *(()&%$ girl at work.
Been kind of piled up with stress with this small space of office, few ppl i see everyday, with same old bully jokes which is not even funny but rather rude and immature.
Sick of hearing ppl eating certain food or not eat b/c they want to loose those bigo fat ass.
Sick of hearing ppl complain about job caused by other's fault, but really b/c she doesn't want to do anything at all.
sick of holding my thoughts to myself and sometimes letting it slip. either by words or on my face
All of these will come to an end tomorrow.
I will get up at 7:20am, get dressed, and get to work on time, eat my breakfast, start my job, and focus on what I need to do, and what I should do well, period.
I will take this as serious as getting an A on a test. I haven't done my best, and i will do my best.
Then when I get out of work, I promise I will treat myself with laughters and relaxations.
This is how I would get back to these ppl, I will be able to survive, in my way, will no longer avoid showing my true colors just b/c I might be misunderstood or you might be sensitive to my background.
I am NOT whatever you say I am, if I wasn't why would a say I am? (A reverse of EMINEM)
obviously not in a very good mood today, was dying in pains, headache, tummy ache, and was almost puking during office hours today.
I will not fucking fuck up at work again.
(Excuse my language, you know I don't curse, but this time I have to, for my own sake.)
current mood: back off, bitach
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| Monday, April 10th, 2006
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11:46 pm - *moving this blog
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This is just a pre-...head up thing, thinking about moving this blog to eBlog since it's got more capability of posint images, archives...etc. Hopefully the move will be quite straight forward. Will send notice when decided to do that.
Haven't got much going on to blog about, had the chance to meet up with Manli, had dinner with her, which was nice. Haven't spend time with anybody from UW in a long time.
Then went out with colleague for dinner, its funny how the first ever more personal meeting with a colleague is actually someone from corporate, not from my office.
This tells u parts of the culture of my office.
I think i have a bad habbit i need to change, sometimes I can keep some of the comments to myself too well, i mean most of the time i just keep to myself, but sometimes I just can't stand it and let it out. Which is not good, i need to get it out some other way.
B/c sometimes its just at the point u felt irritated, or what, everybody appears to be nice to each other, but some how they are not when not in each other's face.
This sometimes get to me, I guess I just have to get used to it.
Anywayz, thought to come here to update so u know I am still alive.
Goodnight.
current mood: calm
current music: *Leslie Cheung-這麼遠那麼近
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| Thursday, April 6th, 2006
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9:37 pm - *letter of recommendation
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Have been asked to write a letter of recommendation for ex-neighbor's kid. My connection to the school of his choice would be the main reason they've asked me to do so. (yes, husky it is.)
In the past, I had always been the one asking to get one, now I will be the one writing it. XD Really don't want to screw up his life you know. (What if they decided to kick him out after seeing my horrible writing?)
(I am writing this, b/c I was a huksy, and I believe he should become one too... Admission: yeah your english suck, we didn't even know how you got accepted, this kid is not going b/c you've written this letter.........)
Tat would be funny, um i ment horrible.
Tones of colleauges from other branches visited our office today, it was like a zoo....! If you know what I mean, English Chinese, Chinglish, and Japanese...
There's this guy from corporate, he's got this ABC thing going on, but later found out that he immigrated to the US when he was 14, sort of just like how I was when I first went to the US.
Looking at him, all americanized, well he speaks perfect chinese, but fluent "fluent" english as well, and looking at myself all "asianized" (had been mistaken into Japanese again last time when walking my boss out of the hotel lobby with my team, all of them were recognized as American, Taiwanese, but the waiter decided to greet me in Japanese as I was walking pass him. O_O This was common when I was in the US, Taiwanese ppl thought I was japanese, Japanese ppl thought I was Japanese or korean....Asian ppl thought I was japanese (sorry cacasians don't count here, you guys are blind. :P)
Now I am in my home country and I am still getting recognized as japanese, what the heck! Not that I get offended/or anything, but this is just weird, just like been recognized as a stranger at home......
I don't knoe how did this entry turn into a "I am not Japanese" discussion, but oh well, time to rest, need to get up early tomorrow for a conf. call at 8am!(And another one at 9.)
current mood: complacent
current music: *The Platters - "The Great Pretender"
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| Tuesday, April 4th, 2006
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12:22 am - *summer???GO AWAY HUMIDITY
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Worked till late again today, as I was getting out of the elvator...the door opened smell of hot and humid air was just all over on the ground floor. They do have the air condition on, but the front door's kind of open since they've got this spinning door thing.
Had a really long day...took me ages to review this report from client. She continue to slack made tones of errors. It sucks that I can't really just look at what she wrote and submit it....doesn't really hurt me, but as part of this Taiwanese culture....I am getting frustrated....人情and 責任感 altogether with their sense of 差不多....I really doubt the creditbility of their inventory reports.
but until Corp develop a better way to monitor this, I will just have to do what I can. compare their reports to our shipment schedule.....
Ok, thats a bit too exclusive, hope u understood nothing. :P
So tomorrow will be day off, actually two days off from tomorrow on. Kind of good, b/c i've got this stomach ache whole day today, and its curred as soon i walked out of the building. I know why, the claims, those stupid claims, both of my supervisor and leader in TWN continue to have conflict on how it should be handled. It sucks to be caught in between when mummy and daddy are in a fight.
ok, enough of work stuff.
After getting out of the building I began to realize the temperature probably had raised to 28C today. hot hot hot
I didn't go outside after getting in, but I heard from co- it was hot outside in the day time.
Tho kind of late for a walk, but I could not resist but taking a walk thru around the area I m most familiar with. Passed by the hospital where I was born...with mixture of hospital smell and summer-ish humidity...brought back past summer memories which I do not want to be reminded of....I have this hospital phobia....which I think specially during the summer I probably don't want to be in the hospital....
Walked on this street where i would usually walk by during jurnior high school years when commuting back home. Walking on this street had sort of diminish my sense of time....
On this street I could see home of where my elementary school friend used to live, where me and my childhood friends had walked when took them out to play...the water tank where my best friend challenged to jump-cross over...and finally arrive on the inersection where i m most familiar with, almost wanted to turn right as I would to get home in the past. But I didn't, instead I waited at the intersection to go to the night market to get food. Not feeling hungry, but just want to sit there and eat...just like I did many years ago.
Picked the gyoza shop where me and mom and bro sat and ate together during 2004...
After finishing the delicious plate (btw this place has been there since long ago)I walked right across the street from my "home". I couldn't help but raised my head to look thru the window....trying to imagine what its like inside now....
Ah tones of details eh, now u know what kind of things go thru my mind after work....
Anywayz its take, time to catch some sleep. night night.
current mood: thoughtful
current music: *some old chinese song on the radio
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| Sunday, April 2nd, 2006
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6:03 pm - *precious ring
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Just wanted to come here to let u know how how crazy I have been with spendning all the precious money i've got from tedious work....
Ah.................don't get me wrong this is not real. Just a fake...good looking ring. I've spent tones of money on home improvement, thought would treate myself with pair of earrings and this ring, and bought pair of sunglasses.....(altogether under USD50, so there.)
current mood: chipper
current music: *hitfm radio
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| Friday, March 31st, 2006
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10:12 pm - *sex & the city character
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9:26 pm - *FRIDAY* QUARTER END
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End of Q3 for WDC, actually I am not really sure why is everybody so excited about this, but since I was treated with good food, so I guess...."GO QUARTER END". I know i will be treated with more buggers on monday, but oh well.
So decided I would come and update.....Can't believe its almost been a week since last updated.
During this week I had a day off, actually two one was for holiday, another for a body check-up appt.
So, am I healthy? I have been told that looking at the BMI I would need to lose quite a bit to maintain the "healthy" bodyshape. So, more dieting for me to do for sure. (No news to me obviously.) Besides that I was told I have too low of cholestroal....Not sure what to do with that.
Thats all I've found out so far, won't be recieving the report till later. So I guess I am good.
What was not good was that....afterwards me and my colleagues decided to treat ourself with a full body-massage. Yes body massaege, from which I am still feeling sore on the back. I was told that from crossing my legs and curling my back too often is causing bad circulation which causes my migrants. He's got the corssing leg and curling back right, so I guess does that mean I need to do something about it so back massage won't be so painful next time?
So, anywayz, if you decided to come to Taiwan I will take u there, its a nice place also very well known by tourist. Which is why if you decided to get ur own room and do a full body massage, I am sorry you gotta pay urself, its a bit expensive for me to afford. I was told i should go back once a week....yeah right, more like once per year.
So that was the adventure for the week.
Now I am believing that I am not in the best mood at night...I am more positive in the day time tho.
I guess I will try to update tomorrow when the sun's still out. Alright, Ciao.
Don't miss me too much.
current mood:  physically exhausted
current music: *hit fm-onloine radio
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